Today H came by so we could go to the park. We were talking about our apartment and how he was going to be moving to another one maybe as early as this week. I asked him about the D and he said he was moving forward with it. He said he didn't want to give me false hope but there will always be the possibility that we will get back together but that right now he felt this was the best thing for us. He feels that we both need to grow as people before we can commit to each other. He's not saying he's returning at all but doesn't want me to feel we're 100% over.
He was telling me about his C session and how great the C was. It seems that the C is pro marriage (yippee) but is obviously making H think real hard. Homework for next session is to tell the C what he feels for me. H explained that he cares for me so much and thinks I'm a great person but doesn't love me like before. His C was explaining to him that love changes over time and what you felt for your S in the beginning quite often changes so even though it doesn't feel like love it often still is in some apsects love.
I told him that this would be a learning experience for me too and I would do my best to make the most out of a bad sitch.
He was telling me that he thought our friends (the sames ones I was with Friday) M was so wonderful and that most of it was because they don't need to do everything together. They both spend time with other friends and it makes them stronger as a couple.
He also told me that the friend whom he'll live with is NOT getting a D but they are talking a year to spend apart and then after the year the H will go back home a work on his M. Thats an interseting thought isn't it?!?
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
