While everyone on this board has experienced pain, your pain is double. You have the pain of the divorce plus the pain of infertility. I cannot even imagine how hard that is to bear.
You are completely right to shut the door on a relationship with your ex. He is a weak man who blows with the wind through life. You have steadfast determination. You will get where you want to go. You will find a strong man who will be your partner in life, and as for having a baby, sometimes God works in different ways. We adopted our first child. I have never doubted that that boy was meant to be our son. We just had to go about it a different way. And many say not surprisingly, I could get pregnant after that.
Life is a journey. You never know how things will work out, but if you work steadfastly toward your goal, I have found that no matter how unreachable it may seem, you can get there.
