lodo, I know how hurt you are but what I keep seeing is that every time you talk with your W you get more hurt. QUIT talking to her! She can't decide about staying or leaving, you talk her into leaving. She can't decide to stay M or not, you say you are filing. Why do you do that? quit acting like a whipped puppy! You say she is so adamantly against making it work, but it looks more like you are trying to control how it should work.
You say W and om have 4 months of isolated working conditions. I think that is eating you up and you can't deal with it. I think if you go ahead and file it will be like giving them a free pass to do what they want.
I am sorry to be harsh, but you are reacting to your pain. Go dark. Stay away from her. Do that for your own sanity. Drown yourself in GAL and build your PMA and then think about starting to make some decisions.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
