H is having affair after all

[Evie]

cant believe i've just typed a whole page and it hasn't submitted!!

I just wanted to thank you both for your replies.

lwb -sounds like we're married to the same guy!

I've just had my first face to face encounter with H since wednesday and it didn't go down well at all. He dropped s2 off after having him for a few hours while i worked. H looked normal like nothing had happened and asked for some of his dvd's, he was on his way to work, so i said i would put them to one side, I said bye and shut and locked the door(habit)

within minutes he was on the phone to s1 saying he didn't get the chance to say hello to him b/c mummy had slammed the door in his face, in fact s2 was lying on the sofa watching a dvd and didn't move when i said his dad was back.

within a minute of that call i got a text message saying if i wanted to be a BITCH, then he would be too, and too remember it was half his house as well. He said he didn't appreciate the door been slammed in his face without the chance to kiss the boys.

i can see how my behaviour must have seemed, but i didn't do it delibrately, i was so nervous of seeing and didn't know how to act, he threw me with the way he acted ( i thought he would appear more sheepish) and acting for his dvd's without a consideration for me. If the shoe was on the foot and it was me i would be laying low and letting things die down before asking for ANYTHING.

It wasn't done delibrately, but i can see how my behaviour would have seemed. I texted him back and said i was sorry for the door it was a habit, i hadn't deliberately stop boys from saying hello, that s2 was on the sofa and he could come in and help himself to his dvd's.

His reply was that he was sending me an email and he wanted me to read it, I said 'don't, there's nothing right now i want to hear from u. Even more if your about to have a go about the kids'. He asked me to read it, this is it:

''This is already becoming nasty and tempers are being lossed.

I am already having to say to S1 that I couldn't say good bye to him because you just slammed the door then locked it in my face.

I am not going to barge into the house or thieve items which we bought together over the many years. We have both worked so hard for every thing we own at the cost of our marriage.

We have lost our marriage and I really don't want to lose every thing we have worked for as well.

I fully accept that the situation is my fault and I am really not proud of it and especially not talking to you in the very early days.

I know now is the wrong time to discuss matters - and I'm not going to.

I just wanted to let you know that I have no want for this to get nasty because in temper things are said and actions may well be taken by either of us to spite each other.

I do want to keep things on an even kiel - and I know you hate me but please can you not use the children or slam the door in my face.

I still want to share all we have worked for between us inc the business etc etc - I am not an evil person or a person to fight for a tv or a house plant etc etc and I hope you are not either.

There would be only one winner if this becomes nasty and that is a Solicitor who will be on holiday and who drives around in a car paid for by us fighting each other.''

I just feel that he wants everything, there doesn't seem to be any consideration for the fact that he has just ended my world for a second time and he wants to remain friends, split everthing 50/50 and lets not quibble about it in the process!!!!

I'm not going to reply, but I do feel like saying F**k you, you lied, decieved and humiliated me and you want me to be ok about it all.....[censored] i'm so pissed right now...

If i 'act as if' he's going to think i'm ok about it all (just like the last 6 months), i'm dammed if i do and im dammed if i dont.

Any advice?