H's biggest problem is that he can never forgive himself for all he has done. He knows God can forgive, that I have forgiven him but he cannot forgive himself because he sees how damaging this has been.
He told me late lastnight how much better he feels after he talks to me. For some reason, he is afraid to talk to me but then once he begins, he sees it is not so bad afterall.
He also told me that I have been a real blessing for him both as a wife and someone who has stayed with him thru all of this.
Finances is a big thing right now. I asked him what he would like to see me do in order to help out more. He told me and I listened and agreed to some extent. I did let him know that for now, since he is not home, it would be difficult for me to obtain a full time job since I have to take a child to school in the morning and pick her up at 3:15, make time to take all of them for medical/dental visits--once a month to the orthodontist..take them to this and that, etc. He said he fully understands.
I am considering a few options which I will discuss with him today with regard to some work at home options.
He did say he does not want to hurt OW. I suspect he is trying to let her down gently but could be wrong. I am sure she knows by now what is going on. I am not bothered by her like I was in the beginning.
Time for me to get moving again.
BND: Thanks for telling me about the sale. I have a $10 off coupon!!
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
