You are going to get there. It just takes time, and in the meantime, you have to just live your life with your precious kids like they are all you have in your family. What activities are you doing with S8 to help him cope with the loss of his fathers attention? I would suggest the cub scouts if you have the time. How is D5 handling this? You really need to focus most of your energy on the kids right now. Everything else will hopefully fall in place.
