perhaps the only reason I was able to db and get my h to come home was that there really wasn't much to miss...
we didn't go out together... didn't even sleep together half the time h was on the couch.. weren't intimate emotionally or physically... didn't laugh didn't talk.. didn't have a r.. h wasn't around much and when he was he was doing his own thing.. I took care of what needed to be done with the children and things in the home... I took care of what needed to be done with myself... h was simply here...paying the bills...a male presence in the house...(sure asleep on the couch but here)
h just doesn't get it... his customers he jumps for..whatever they need...he's there...over doing for them whatever they need to have done..responding to their calls promptly...making time for them always..
me?? I ask him to pick up a couple gallons of paint from the hardware store he's at all the time so I can paint our bedroom...ya know what..LL's just going to have to find a local store that carries that brand and get it herself..
while h was gone and even when he first came home...he did the dishes...he was alert..he made time for the kids and for me...now h can't even rinse off his dish...never mind put it in the dishwasher..and time for me and the kids??? forget it...h is just the wallet around here...and the sad thing is...I don't feel like I would be loosing a whole lot if I decided to tell him to get out!!
