am I really ok with all that has happend?? can I really accept the a (ea?) that h had?? can we really move beyond it or will it forever be there?? will h ever be able to communicate his feelings to me?? does he already?? will I ever be comfortable with the r?? will ow move away and never return?? will there never be another ow?? am I making the right choice for myself in accepting h's discretion?? will I ever stop questioning myself? h? will h ever start telling me he loves me with regularity?? will h ever ask me to once again wear my rings??
I could go on and on...and I know that most of these questions have no answers...they just keep ruminating in my mind..some I try to stop and answer myself but they seem to creep back in again...
