I haven't been around for a while (trying to get my head together by not focussing on H - seems to be working)
Quote: I'm tired and I ache...I have once again lost my appetite..I once again have no motivation to even make breakfast for the kids...I don't want to be on drugs but I suppose I am going to have to...I can't just keep pushing myself I am bound to break that way...
Sorry to hear you are so down. I hope your trip helps to break you out of this, but if not, I recommend an excellent book, "Feeling Good" by Dr. David Burns. I was in the same place as you a couple of weeks ago, contemplating meds because I couldn't go on how I had been. But I don't like the idea of anti-depressants, so I was willing to try anything else. It is based on cognitive-behaviour modification - and has been shown to be as effective at treating depression as medication. I am right now working on his "Ten Days to Self Esteem", as I think I too have had low self esteem for... well, forever! I am feeling MUCH better over the last two weeks. And no side effects. I would recommend any of Dr. Burns' books to anyone struggling with depression.
I hope you have a wonderful time on your trip! {{{{{{{LL}}}}}}}
