Slowly--H is getting "rest" this weekend as so far he has just hung out w/the kids and sort of/also with me. No work on the basement, no cow stuff, just hanging out.
The secret cell phone is in the garbage can. When I went to bed at midnight it was on the kitchen counter. So I don't know when he threw it away but he did, in 3 pieces as I said..
I was making small talk today, I know I shouldn't but sometimes old habits die hard....mentioned a comedian we saw on our honeymoon in Vegas was in town. (Didn't mention the honeymoon or anything, just said "Harland Williams is in town".) H said try to get tickets for tonight and we can go? So I don't know how appropriate that is. I told him we could make no progress on our attempt at our M as long as OW was around. I guess he thinks telling me that he ended it w/her, and having his phone available means we can start trying again?
I don't want to be inconsistent. I did say we could try again if I felt that SHE wasn't a factor....and even though I hate what he has done I do like spending time w/H....but I am so afraid of getting closer to him again and having it blow up in my face, again...
