And now , the end is near

[KarenMarieS]

Just wanted to post this, thought it was an interesting tidbit of a convo that my S had w/ his father last weekend.

They met up for lunch Sunday, first ODD, never in 5-1/2 yrs has ex asked S to do lunch/dinner on a weekend, interferes w/ his social life. He had not seen him since before Christmas and ex had some more gifts for him from family

Anyway, as they were sitting there, having a beer after- S brought up the fact that B and I were engaged. Not sure of the exact reaction from ex, something like really?? ( I am thinking fireworks were going off in his head, elated at the thought of the end of that pesky alimony!)

But then S said they had a rather odd convo. Ex said to S, out of the blue,,,ya know S, I'm an Azz****. S laughed and told him to tell him something he didnt know

Anyway it was an hour long convo, but basically Ex told S he didnt know what was wrong w/ him. That he was a complete A**H*** and he was terrible " to your mother" He knows hes not normal but cant help it, he wants NO responsibilities in life, When S said thats not possible over the age of 16! Ex said why not?? why cant I? is it so bad?

Ex admitted he wanted every day to be euphoric , every day to be a day at Disneyland AND that went for R too. Why do they have to become comfortable?
He told S he is best alone, he's felt this way most of his life

S said thats fine if thats how you are dad, you cant seem to help how you feel but the prob is dad you leave this path of destruction in your wake. First mom and me, then L ( his chicke) and prolly her 2 D too. S had asked his dad what about L? dont you want to settle down w/ her? and ex much to S surprise said,,,no, no i dont think so.

So S asked then what are you doing w/ her? I do believe she thinks you have a future. Ex admitted I have no clue what I am doing or why I am doing it

He also admitted hes NOT REALLY HAPPY- and he was wrong to do what he did to me and S ( now by no means do I think he regrests he did, but how he did it)

He told S, You dont want to be in my head its not a good place to be.

He asked if I was happy w/ B and S said yes but she was happy before B came along she had learned to make herself happy, thats what people have to do, B came along and they make each other happier!
Ex seemed perplexed by that statement!

Anyway, for a man who never opens up that was big. He told S he hasnt discussed this with anyone but him.

I think he told S because he is the one left who still loves him unconditionally

Its sad really, in some way I feel a bit sorry for him. NOT for what he did but for his mindset and the frustration he must feel all the time.

I thought I'd be on cloud 9 when I heard this one day IF I did, funny, it dosnt matter all that much to me. To say I've moved on is more then true. Thought an apology one day would be nice, this may be the closest I get.

Bethie said to me and shes prob right, Ex may of told S this knowing S and I are close and he tells me a lot!

So there ya have it, the mlc clouds rolling by? maybe, maybe not, think my ex is always going to be this way to some extent, mlc def exaggerated it tho!