Not much good from the looks of it... it looks like you're wishing for a lot of stuff you can't have...
"God, Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference."
That silly in love thing gets replaced by mature love, you only get to begin once, the feelings H shared with ow are separate from you and they're gone now, too
lostlove, you ARE in love now...
How is this horrible wretched feeling going to go away? Why do you hang on to it? I don't mean your R, now. I mean this feeling you have so often....
Wishing for stuff you can't have while denying what's real? That you are a vibrant, loveable, intellegent woman?
Lostlove, forgive me, I don't know your whole sitch, but, are you in individual counseling? Are you on A/D's? I'm not saying I know anything, because I don't. If you are not in therapy and you are not on A/D's you might be depriving yourself of some much deserved happiness for longer than need be. I don't know if you're DB'ing out there and just venting all the no-good-non-DB stuff in here, or what, but...
I really do hope the best for you and your sitch, but sheesh, you gotta get yourself out of that hole....
