Boy this is hard. I have to say this is the hardest year of my life, hands down. I waver every minute from "I'm fine" to falling apart. I never thought my body could produce so many tears. Must be all the water I drink. But I am holding it together, enjoying at least the freedom of being a single mom. I also enjoy the freedom of being distanced from H's drama, his single life (you know my mind goes crazy at times!!), and all the other things that go along with a WAS.
I can do this. I will do this. I feel a certain amount of distance from H this week, but I suppose that is necessary for both of us to carry on with sanity. H looks 100 years old. I am sleeping, but not eating too much. I am back to my 'food is gross' feeling, but when I do eat, I make sure its healthy.
H took D6 to her Girl Scout father/daughter dance last night. Darn him for looking so handsome when he came to get her.
OW's H called me yesterday (he has called before but I answered this time). They are doing Retro this weekend. He trusts her that she wants to work on things, but doesn't trust her to never cheat again. They are having a hard time. I was nothing but supportive, for the sake of their kids. Once my biggest fear was H moving out and being with OW full time, funny how things change.
