just not to h...to h LL is that misery that he must endure to come home to his children...the person who is all of that to h is the ow!!! I am nothing to him and have been nothing to him for a long time...he married me out of convinience, "it was the next step" he stays with me simply because of the children...and then says to me "no matter what I do it's never enough" gee maybe that's becuase you don't show me that you love me...sure you care...youre concerned who wouldn't be..your ability to leave in the morning depends on my being there and ok by 6 am so that you can leave...otherwise you'd be just fine if I were gone..sure your depressed about "us" going away next week...but I know you'll be happy to be rid of me for a week. and frankly at this point...I wish I were leaving this morning...and not comming back!!!!
