Quote: LL wishes she truly believed the possitive things she lists about herself..but honesltly it's total crap that she tries to convince herself to get by...
The strength of your character shines through in your posts, LL. I think we all start feeling crappy about ourselves because we wonder "why." Frankly, I have to keep reminding myself it's about our Ses, not us. It's their pain, their weaknesses that drove them to do what they did. Yes, we might have helped open that door, but they walked out. You are a good person with strong values and have a lot to give. Your H knows this and that's why he's STAYING home.
Quote: h came home but LL feels it's just for the kids and h is just putting up with LL so he can be with them.
For many of us I believe this to be true...at first. But who cares if that's what it takes. Then, over time, the shift occurs in our S. If I went back a few threads, LL, I bet I'd see less that your H is doing than what he's doing today. He's coming around slowly, LL. Give it time. Yeah...yeah...I know...patience is crap! However, it's our best weapon when Piecing I think.
It's late for you. Go to sleep. My wish is that when you wake up in the morning, things will seem brighter... I even have my shades on in anticipation...
