I haven't dropped by for a bit. I have gotten myself caught up though & just wanted you to know that I am thinking and praying for your family.
You are quite the 'Superhuman Mama' indeed. Just take things slow, which with one bad foot is about all you can do. Have fun with the kids. When you get time for yourself then do something that you have been wanting to do for a long time but never got around to. I think I am going to do some martial arts for the first time ... good for the mind, body & spirit.
You notice I have not said anything about H and that is the way you should be thinking as well. Be loving but quiet towards him. Slowly but steadily detach from him so that he can have the time he needs for himself.
God's gentle touch is as a snowflake. Let him intervene in your life. Experience the joy of his love.