We are "unoffiicially" separated (due to his work. Long story!) for 19 months now. He is coming and going ever since .Last time (after finding out about the OW) I've told him that i will not call him, unless it's an emergency. And I never did.
I'm not sure I know what "Stella wants"... as if he influenced me with his crazy MLC and I don't even know who I am anymore. He is not the only one who needs time to process things... I guess I expect him to do something to clean up the mess he created and to convince me somehow that it's for real. Dreams
I've already decided that I want to go home first (I'm in Asia now) and see how things will turn out to be. Then, accordingly, I will decide what to do with my life.
Sorry, if the whole thing doesn't make much sense. Cannot write to save my life!
I agree with you there and I agree with Addie. You were taken by surprise when H called. Don't get your hopes up quickly, and I think you have this MLC down pretty well, b/c he may just have been "up" that day and tomorrow he may be back "down". It is a rollercoaster.
I think you should take some time for yourself to heal and to know what it is you want to do with your life and if you still want your H to be a part of your life or if you want to move on without him.
I am still here for you and I wish you all the best. I'll talk to you later.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
