so instead of talking to him about how I'm feeling I'm posting it on here.
We just had the Easter talk.. technically it's his weekend with D2 and I was wondering if there was any chance I would get to spend the holiday weekend with her.. well he said that he would spend time with her on Good Friday and that I could have her for the weekend.. which I'll admit is a good thing.. the part I'm finding difficult is that he shows NO SIGN of being upset that D2 and I will not be spending Easter with him and his family this year.. why is it that it hurts me so deeply and he is completely unaffected?
Along with us spending Easter apart now he is going to have to explain to his family why D2 and I aren't there.. which he didn't want anyone to know about our separation before.. just cements that he is really making the decision to truly separate.. and it feels permanent... and it really sucks.
Anyway, I need to collect myself, put on a happy face and then go back downstairs and act as if.. thanks for listening and being here for me.
so instead of talking to him about how I'm feeling I'm posting it on here. 
