Thanks guys! Kerry, I get why you maybe didn't care for Cold Mountain. Most of the middle is Nicole Kidman and Renee Zellweger bonding, sort of chick flick stuff probably to you...I should check out that other movie.
Woog, thanks for being my watchdog/teddy bear. I appreciate it. Hope you are currently in the middle of an enjoyable dinner. If you do have dessert, I recommend Creme Bulee'
I believe I AM okay, for now at least. After I got off of this thing again, I went and got kids from school (I always call day care school, guess it sounds more "important" that way!). I decided to take them out for a non-drive-thru supper since we needed to get groceries and I wanted to feed them first to avoid grocery-store melt downs.
Nate (S5) chose Lone Star Steakhouse. Sounded good to me too since H is the one who grills around here which means I haven't had steak in a couple of weeks. So I got the filet and salmon combo with awesome steamed broccoli. Kids got kid meals that came with ice cream sundaes. S was in heaven that I let him order a pop with his meal...D is still too young for that privelege.
On the way to dinner H called. He can't get the truck until early next week, at least that is what he said. So he is coming down tonight and in fact should be here any minute. He called again as we were entering the grocery store so I kept it short. He was just telling me where on the road he had gotten so far (don't know why I needed to know that necessarily). In retrospect I wonder if he was testing the waters, taking my mental temperature so to speak.
After hanging up I worried I was too willing to chat tonight. Came home and re-read "After the Last Resort" from the Affair section of DR book. Yep, I should stick to the topic of the kids ONLY when talking with him. But, how do you do that if they bring up other things? He was telling me about things that happened at work and a friend of his family's who got killed in a car accident today, etc. Do you just say "Oh, mm hmmm..." and leave it at that, do you NOT talk at all, what? I don't want H to think I am still his buddy. I want to be his buddy and supportive spouse while he fixes himself but I am absolutely NOT willing to do that until he permanently ditches OW. Do I come right out and SAY that? Or do I let actions speak louder than words?? He will be here for 48 hours I will most likely not be gone from here that whole time. So suggestions on the "Right" behavior for "After the Last Resort?" I don't want to be written off as the b!tch, but I want to make it clear that all we are now is co-parents unless and until there is drastic action taken on the OW front...
But wow I am surprised I am holding up okay I think......
