Will I be here?

[Beth 83]

So, i realized that I haven't been keeping you all up to date on everything
T & OD & Jeff...my 3! What would I do without you?

((((((T, OD, JEFF))))))))

So...

H & I interactions: Often over IM, text. we talk pretty often now adays. From both of us. He is still w/ OW because I was in her neighborhood around 3 weeks ago and saw his car there.

H sent me cookies for V-day. I never wrote him to thank him until he asked me about them and I said that it was awkward. he wrote back that he understood.

Sunday: H and I IM'ing each other. H convinced he told me a story:
H (story)
B: You did NOT tell me that story!
H: Oh, maybe I told (3 other friends)
B; or maybe you told OW
B: "you forget you don't tell ME things anymore!"

(long pause over IM from H)

H: Anyway...(continues with story)

I've seen 2x this week:

Monday: I called him because our pet bunny let me hold her FOREVER which she has never done before. when I called him, he was at his parents house and asked if he could come over. I said yes (it is only around 5 minutes away). He came over and we both petted the bunny, I got her to let him hold her. It was nice.

Tuesday: I had been telling H previously that I was going to do something special to watch the Primary elections (H, especially is very political). He ended up coming over and we spent the night together. He left around 11pm. We sat on the couch talking, joking. Hug goodbye both times.

H still wearing his wedding band.

H's 30th birthday is next week. Him and OW have the EXACT SAME BIRTHDAY..SAME YEAR AND EVERYTHING.

I think about last year. I found the card I gave him a while back. H had told me he had to work on his birthday. My card said that I was sorry he had to work on his birthday. I'm sure he didn't work, but spent the night w/ OW. Anyway, when I found the card a few months back, I ripped it up and threw it away.

So, i'm having a hard time w/ H birthday. I don't know if I should buy him a gift. I just don't know what I should do.

One Day...You already went through this, right? I can't remember what you did?

I'm doing ok, otherwise. I really should write more to you guys about the deep things I'm going through, rather than just reiterating the interactions I have.

Talk to you all soon.