BND!!! I know, I should have!!!! What am I doing BND? Why do I suck at this?!?!?!?!
You suck at this because you will not exercise self-control. Simple as that, Dar. I (and many others) have held your hand and walked you through this, step by step. You have the tools to do this. YOU just refuse to be a little more uncomfortable than usual sometimes and you blow. Then you regret it. Grow up. Wake up. Shut up. Ali's post was dead on. Someone can come along behind me with the warm fuzzies and make you feel better but Dar, sometimes it takes being face down with your nose scraped up on the pavement to finally understand that we FALL for no other reason than WE trip OURSELVES up. Expect more of yourself. Demand more of yourself. Start today.
If I'm late in my reply, I'm sorry. Keep it just the same....It'll be good reference for the next flip out, unless of course, you get a grip.