LWB~ I am glad you had great vacation. And it must be hard for you to have separation. I hope you have time for yourself sometimes.. (but I know it is not easy..) I know what you meant about 'I miss you more when you are here with me' I had the disconnected feeling over the years... It is getting better.. I don't know why..possibly detaching..?
Beauty
Me:31 H:29 D:7 S:2 M:7y Together:8y found out his A :07/07 bomb:11/01/07 s: 11/15/07 OW-1 is out of state; other female friends around first thread
Boy this is hard. I have to say this is the hardest year of my life, hands down. I waver every minute from "I'm fine" to falling apart. I never thought my body could produce so many tears. Must be all the water I drink. But I am holding it together, enjoying at least the freedom of being a single mom. I also enjoy the freedom of being distanced from H's drama, his single life (you know my mind goes crazy at times!!), and all the other things that go along with a WAS.
I can do this. I will do this. I feel a certain amount of distance from H this week, but I suppose that is necessary for both of us to carry on with sanity. H looks 100 years old. I am sleeping, but not eating too much. I am back to my 'food is gross' feeling, but when I do eat, I make sure its healthy.
H took D6 to her Girl Scout father/daughter dance last night. Darn him for looking so handsome when he came to get her.
OW's H called me yesterday (he has called before but I answered this time). They are doing Retro this weekend. He trusts her that she wants to work on things, but doesn't trust her to never cheat again. They are having a hard time. I was nothing but supportive, for the sake of their kids. Once my biggest fear was H moving out and being with OW full time, funny how things change.
Hey lwb.. don't have long to talk but wanted to say how sorry I am for your hurt.. but im hoping this is a good thing for you eventually.. to really know what life is like without you.
H is due home any moment.. I thought of you on my vacation.. wondering where you were.. hoping I would have bumped into you. Next time though.. My vacation didnt go as planned, but im learning to except dissapointment.
thinking of you and those beautiful D's of yours.
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
