FA, Yeah, you are definetely right about me needing to detatch and go read my own solution journal to keep me on track.
I feel like I am losing hope very quickly for my situation. Sometimes I read so many negative things (and hear it from all my friends and family) that since he is extremely depressed and an alcoholic, that I am up against double the odds. I know that I dont want to lose hope that he can and will someday change and get help and heal, but it all seems so unpracticle.
It just feels like he has hurt me so bad and just continues to do so by the coming and going. I hope he is really doing that due to his own confusion and not to make sure I dont get too far out of his grasp.
Thanks again for your support and I know I need to not focus on him, I need to focus on myself and my future. I need to go back to working on my goals : of not crying about it all day, and not talking about it with friends and family so much, and keeping my hope and love alive for him. TIPPER
