No, I haven't yet apologized Jeff. I've tried calling and emailing in order to apologize, but haven't actually apologized yet. And I'd rather do so over the phone rather than in email. He's ignorning me now though I guess. I guess it's okay for him to bomb and walk out but I can't lose it 18 months later.
Why are you trying to apologize, Dar?
Is it because you think you blew your chances of having your marriage restored...
Or
Is it because you acted like a spoiled, self-absorbed brat when he's in the physical pain he's in due to his neck (not to mention being on meds for it)?
Is the apology for yourself because you don't want to be without hope (so basically you're ass kissing) or because you genuinely feel you owe it to him, even if it means you are left with NO hope of restoration?
The answer will reveal what's at the bottom of your heart and the center of your motivation.
