First of all thanks to everyone for following my situation and giving me support. I am not sure what I will do just yet...but am glad that H is only going to be here on weekends from now on.
However tonight starts the weekend. H is coming down tonight, or at least that was the plan before the stuff hit the fan....I told him in a brief e-mail response last night that I still plan on him coming down this weekend and being w/the kids because they are counting on seeing him. Plus he keeps saying they are the only good in his life so he needs them, too.
I have looked into a couple hotels for me, too, but I always have hated going to a hotel alone...part of me feels like this is my house I am living in it and I shouldn't have to go anywhere...
But maybe I will, I thought about getting a room with a whirlpool tub in it and soaking the night away....or at least getting out, going to a movie that can distract me for a while. I know I am going to go out and do SOMETHING...I do NOT want to go out w/any of my friends though. I know people say you need to be around other people but right now I don't want to be around anyone. Poor babies to be honest I don't even really want to be with my kids. Just want to be alone for awhile. Called in sick to subbing today due to S's fever last night. But fever is gone, so he is going to school at least 1/2 day so I can have some "peace" time...
Gotta go drive kids to school. Thanks again guys for being there for me...
