Chicki, I am still wondering if you could tell me about your H's depression/situation more.
Kissak, I will have to look into that because I have never heard that about the legal seperation starting again if they are to come back and leave. My lawyer told me that next year he will be able to file and never mentioned that.
Cat, That was very helpful to read those quotes. Thank you. I know that I simply have to face it and accept it that he just doesn't want our M anymore and is looking to change a lot of things about his life. I am trying to put the focus back on me again now that he left for the third time last week.
Its like as soon as I get back on my feet and feel a little happier and healthier, he comes running back as though I am his security blanket that he doesn't want to get rid of no matter how hard he is trying. I feel so differently about him this time around, I see him as such a poor character that I acually pity. I am scared that the things he goes out and does are only gonna make matters worse. He has allready come over once while I was at work to get some things, and he has text me two times looking for things that seem unneccessary (like his golf clubs when it is still the winter & he is low on funds). I feel like he is checking to see if I will respond at all or nicely.
I do believe he has some sort of depression (like bi-polar, or covert) but I cant pin point it. I guess it doesn't matter much, it is what it is. But I have a strong feeling that he is going to keep cycling everytime I get a little too far out of his grasp.
I am doing allright and staying very busy as I have been through this before and have learned how to bounce back quicker now. I have just purchased a new jeep, I went to join a volleyball league on wednesday, I go out every thursday to a trivia night, I have had a friend come over to work on art for two days and I created a great Mosaic & my weekend is allready too filled with events. I will be better this time around gaurenteed. However, my Love for my H feels like the sand dropping through an hour glass. TIPPER
