In stabilization mode 2

[cat03]

I'm also still looking for total acceptance of my self worth since my H has made me feel worthless for the past 7mths. Old habits die hard, I always felt I was falling short for somethings I did/say for the way I looked, whatever, always wondering what the heck was wrong with me that he couldnt' love me nor try hard to keep me.

I think I will visit my great C, the one we used to see with H last year, the one who saw right through him and asked me "so, if he does this again (see ow) what are you going to do?" he knew there was an unhealthy pattern which H had no interest in breaking.

In a few months wii, we'll be good as new inside.