Well, I just ordered the book OT. I've also ordered a book on recovering from emotional abuse because I'm recognizing that I have been putting that aspect of my R aside. I've been so busy keeping myself sane and active that I may not be really addressing the damage that was done to me. When I briefly look through writings on emotional abuse I see a great deal of what I went through, and still do, mentioned. When someone isolates you emotionally, constantly tells you in actions "you're nothing", dismisses or ignores your accomplishments, ignores your needs entirely, is never appreciative of any changes you make, leaves you for years feeling insecure in your M by saying "I'm not sure how I feel about you anymore", withdrawl of affection e.g. we can have sex but I won't kiss you! Complete disregard for my needs as a human being e.g. when I was diagnosed with diabetes she said "I have energy for my job, my school and the kids. I don't have anything left over for you" after I confronted her about her lack of emotional support (btw, despite her lack of support I lost 45lbs and kicked the crap out of diabetes!). These are only a small portion of the abusive actions I have suffered at her hands in the past six years. Although I've come through so far with flying colours, I've got a long road to travel to get back to being a confident man who believes he has a right to be loved.
