Wow, thats brutal. I feel your pain Neecy and I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I think that sometimes its ok to be "crazy", sometimes you just have to be. But then you pull yourself together and get back to doing what you need to do for you and your D. You have good insight to this A, you already realize that she will have some huge holes to fill and will not be able to do so. Don't focus on what you think you are lacking, focus on what YOU want and what YOU need. Being S is hard, but it will give you some of the space you need to decide what is best for you and it gives you a break from the day to day drama of the A. It not easy and its not what I chose, my H decided he was going to leave, but its also been a bigger help because I could focus on my kids and myself and start to sort out me. I wish I could say something that would make it better, but just know that there are lots of people here for you, that care and are pulling for you no matter what.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
