Update to my sitch, the end has come

[mako_man]

LJ, I hear you but its like this. This really isnt in my control, my plan is still to divorce her and hopefully move back to Pittsburgh with my children. I feel a godly obgligation to help her in ways that dont negatively affect myself or my family, I did take vows and believe in them. However, if you want my honest opinion I dont believe she will stay clean, at least I am certain she will drink again. One positive is that our mutual MC is chomping at the bit to finally talk with her again, he claims that she is at a stage where therapeutically he can finally do his thing. Up to now all the counseling has been a waste of time because of her dishonesty and denial. But again, this is out of my control, and while she recently has confessed that I am her main support system (involuntarily), I will be putting the welfare of my children first at all times. I love the woman, but I think if we were to get back together ANY time soon I would start to regret it even if she was clean, honest and permanently "fixed". I can feel that the depth of my feeling for her has been shallowed (does that make sense?), who knows. I dont know, that for sure, each day brings so many new things to think about I just am overwhelmed.