WAW's PA over, but still wants Divorce

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Last night I got home from work later than normal, grabbed DS15 and we went out for sushi with a couple of friends. WAW didn't say a thing when we left. When we got home WAW was already in "bed" (the couch). I watched t.v. for about 10 minutes, got up to go to bed to watch t.v. and I asked her if she wanted the lights off. She nodded yes. Looking at her she looked like crap. Like she'd either been crying or maybe more just really down. I hate that she's feeling down, but I know she has to get there before she can recommit to the marriage.

One thing I've been struggling with. Over the last 3 weeks I've been detaching more and more, and it seems like WAW is responding more and more. But that's the problem. The more I detach, the more I don't care whether it works or not. I guess what concerns me is if I want the marriage to work, I have to detach (GAL), but if that works, I might not want it to work.

It's like, to get what I want, I have to risk not wanting it if I get there.

Anyone else had these feelings?