So H came home with our son (He picked him up from daycare). It is always difficult for me when he comes home after being gone for a couple of days with OW. I feel like I am pushed to side as he wants to spend quality time with our son. Which I want him to have and I know it's important for our son too!
I put on my happy face and showed no anger. I had supper cooked and so that he could have time with our son, I told him I would be back in about an hour that I had something to do. When I came back they had already eaten without me...oh well! I didn't react to that either. Then I mentioned that I was going to visit my girlfriend for a little while. When I got back he was already laying on the coach (which is where he has been sleeping for months) and chatted briefly and went upstairs to bed.
He never brought up the email he sent me about wanting to come up with a schedule. I am not going to bring it up either. I figure if he has something that he wants to share then he will. I know that he is going to want to leave again this weekend and is feeling guilty about not carrying his weight around the house and with our son...which is why he wants to talk so he can some how make himself feel better.
I am truly trying to detach and find ways of making myself feel good. It's still hard, but I am trying. Today I am feeling angry and resentful. I am miserable and he of course is feeling quite happy. The beginning of any relationship with out responsibility always is fun and exciting. It hurts to know that he is obsessed with this OW. OW called our house again last night while I was out. It really makes me angry that he doesn't have enough respect for me to at least delete the call id. Oh well.
Venting here so I can DB when he is around.
I thank everyone for the advice and support. This place has been given me the space to try to remain sain and comfort in knowing that I am not alone. I don't know all of you but feel everyones pain and happiness when things work out. Thank you all!!!!!
M 37 H 37 Married 2yrs (together 7yrs) Son 4yrs old and H has Daughter 11 yrs old H involved with OW since Jan 08 and still seeing OW Still under same roof, but H spending more time with OW as time goes on
