I do believe that he simply isn't ready yet either. I didn't see actions of a true commitment he just tried at first to use words.
Sometimes I still cant believe that he is going through all this, it seems so unreal, he has become the complete opposite of his core personality.
I also can't believe that just about a year ago now was when he first left me and I soon after found this place and michelles books. It gave me so much hope. I remember reading that it could take several years, and at the time I just couldnt accept that and I thought our love was much stronger than that. Soon after (4 months) he actually came running back and very dissapointed in himself and apologetic to me and we pieced for 5 months. I thought things were good, but he left again a week before christmas. Now this last weeks experience, and I feel like my head is spinning.
I have so much healing to do. I finally got out today and worked on an art project with my friend and then we went to a volleyball league and played for the first time. It was good for me, but it still very hard to take my mind off my H and what he's done/doing. Thanks again for the support! TIPPER
