So does this mean we're on the mend?

[Michael Mc C]

D13 has a cheerleading competition tomorrow night. She has been REALLY stressed about this but she has learned tonight that her 'job' has changed and she is feeling much more confident. After picking her up after practice tonight she told me about this and said there is so much stress off of her now.

God, I remember when she was 3 and the most stressful thing in her life was when her Tickle Me Elmo's batteries needed to be changed. She is turning into quite an adult...

So, she got home and my wife noticed that her hair wasn't quite right (for the competition, all the cheerleaders are to have their hair done in tight tight curls with industrial strength hairspray holding everything together). My wife called a friend of ours from town (she was one of the guests that showed up LATE last weekend) and she agreed to fix her hair.

My wife asked me to go along and I declined. My wife asked again and I again declined stating that I thought I would stay here and find something to do (I just finished a great built-in dresser in my son's closet and I caught the "project" bug"). So, as she was getting ready to leave I suddenly realized that I wouldn't mind going!! She asked one more time and I told her that actually I'd like to go along.

We had a good time. She spent most of the time with the friend and I spent my time with the friend's fiancee, a cop in town.

I have to say that although I was happy she invited me, something just doesn't seem right. I feel unappreciated, unloved (go figure) and convenient. I am trying really hard to be patient but it's digging at me more and more. We've discussed it and she has asked me, nicely, to try to understand that she is working through things and that I can't ask her to give more than she is able to provide.

I understand, I really do. But I also have needs and desires. I have to go through my past posts, maybe, to remind myself of where we were and where we are now - hopefully I'll find something that flip the light on for me so I can really see the progress that has been made.