Help I fell off the DB wagon

[minkerman]

What MsLadybug and dry heat are saying is, I think, true.

Two nights ago, after being on the verge of reconciliation (W saying ILY, great sex, talk of moving back, selling apartment and buying new one, travel, etc etc) she dropped Bomb #3. Not moving back, doesn't know how this will end up, has been trying to find a way out of our M for the last 12 years, is not in love with me, etc etc.

I sent her an email the next day, validating everything she said. I told her that she "helped me by telling me all these things". "Now I can move on, just like you". "Wow, 12 years of trying to find a way out...that must have been horrible for you!". "You're so right, I don't want you to move back if you're not in love with me".

The next day she called me twice and texted me once. In the 1st phone call, she apologized for some of what she had said. We had a really nice chat, where she said we should just "keep things neutral"...a big change from wanting out and never loving me again. She ended the call with a sobbing ILY.

So, a perfect example of not believing everything I hear.

Sandy, I am playing it cool. I believe that DB is the best chance wifey and I have.