I love the brunch idea! No offense caused : )!! Well, my W. is away today and I've found my mood moving around. I often missed her when she'd travel pre-ILYBNILWY/pre-move out. She emailed me yesterday and signed it "talk to you next week", which was a bit of an ouch. I took it to mean that she wasn't planning to have contact while away. Normal enough, I suppose, since we're separated, but it highlighted a difference from how things used to be. It does feel kind of disappointing. Anyway, a friend pointed out to me that every time there is a new level of communication in my W.'s communication (eg. phone calls, warmer emails, etc) that I get used to it immediately and am hoping for "the next level". Whereas my W. may be slooooowly testing out the new level of contact to see how it is first, like easing into a hot bath. That was something that made sense to me.
I just want it all fixed right now!!...surely that isn't too much to expect?
Ug. I'm doing better overall, and our contact is a little better overall, though I continue to see that friendliness does not = reconciliation. On the other hand, it is a necessary element of reconciling. sigh...back and forth my mind goes.
