I know that you are so right. I flip flop between anger and detachment. It's just that when I am angry, I want to do something to rectify the wrong he has done to me. He's definitely not himself and I suppose I should take that as a sign that this indeed insanity. I fear that if I step back and accept the the situation too much, that it will do 2 things: 1)be a sign to him that I have accepted his decision to leave the M, and 2) that I will actually not be able to come back to the M if he chooses to step back in and try to work things out. From the very beginning, I have had 2 entirely opposite possibilities in reacting to any situation and feel like I have chosen the wrong one every time.
Thank you for your input and guidance, Zebra. Your insight is thought provoking.
Me: 38 H: 41 D13 D10 S7 M: 15 years T: 17 years Discovery of EA: 10/07 Suspected PA Trial separation: 1/31/08
