The tough days are the worst but it will get easier. Everyone says it, but focus on you and your S. Keep busy, get a hobby, go work out, go for a walk...anything. When I want to do something that will end up getting me negative results, I sit down and write or instead of calling my H, I call one of my friends. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. Just keep DBing and doing the best for you. Hang in there, you have to live your life, so make it what you want it to be...
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option