Still Confused - Just not as fresh

[Snow White]

I am not saying I would not forgive him - I am not sure about that, But I don't believe that I can be a nice sweet person he would want to come back to during the process so in the end he would not want me anyways. The only way I can get through this is to shut down.

He actually was going to his moms and I suggested he not leave that night since skye was in bed but to wait and tell her in the morning, I didn;t think it was fair especially in the recent confusion (him out Superbowl night, her and I gone for 2 days to my parents).

I am really uncertain with the way he has been acting whether he was just trying as hard as he could to push me to make this decision or not. He still contests that this is my decision he didn't say he wanted things to be over just that he couldn't stop calling her. Well I guess it is my decision then.

He refused to tell D this morning. I told him he needed to tell her while I was there so I could hear what he said. When he refused I started which turned into an argument about how I never do what he "tells me to do" For 12 years now....

I asked him what his plans were tonight - he has none - he asked what I wanted him to do. (of course this is all by text) I replied I would like you to help me with the house. I will start cleaning and maybe you can go around and start a list of things that need to be done (patching, painting ect)