OK, I'm feeling like Robo-poster today but what the heck! Cat mentioned in her recent post that the abuse I took from W was one of the worst she had heard on these boards. Sometimes I tend to forget how hard it was and how bad it was! When others react strongly I'm almost bowled over. Recently, I drove a co-worker home and she was asking me about my adjustment to single life. She knows the basics of my sitch but didn't know the really bad stuff, I tend to keep that to myself. In the course of our convo I found it really hard to explain some things and finally told her about the infidelity, I know she will keep it private but again I tend NOT to devulge this to people. Again, W and I work in the same field so I don't want to expose her personal business to others. Anyway, I told her of the struggles of trying to win back a M when your S is in an A. At that point my co-worker broke down and started crying and said "I can't believe that you lived that way for so long, it's just overwhelming!" That's it, I don't tell anyone else...they all start to cry. It brought home, once again, the depth of the hurt that was inflicted on me. If others respond this way at just the the thought of it, what must it have done to me to live this way for years? Whew! I told her that I took the pain because I wanted my M and family, I did what I had to do. I then told her that I was OK, I said "I know it's strange to say, and I'm not saying I'm glad it happened but I'm a far better, fuller person than I was before. I have a pretty good life believe it or not. I have great friends, two amazing daughters, a faith, a nice place to live, many activities...I'm gonna be OK" She told me that if I ever needed to talk she was there for me. It was nice to hear. OK no more posts today, I gotta do some work!
