save a spot, will be here at some point

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have a preconceived reality based on how they have functioned in the past and how we have reacted and truly think everything will go to plan.

Althea, thanks for your words! You are right on the money, for the past 2.5yrs i have bent over backwards trying to please him, to forgive and let him have freedoms I did not have so he can be happy. He trusts no one but knows I have a conscience and have not cheated nor lied to anyone (specially the way he lied to me!), he might be banking on that.

We have no assets other than the house (his car is paid for, my corolla has 3yrs to go) Our house is furnished with hand-me downs and nothing of value can be found there. No savings, only 1yr of cop's retirement under his name. There isn't much to fight about, so that's why I agreed on a mediation, we both make under 50k per yr, I work ft.

Thanks again for your support, I can't imagen how hard it must've been for you back then when S was fresh and all the children were hurting.
Since he brought up D I have felt freedom again, a lightness in my heart that haven't had since last July (August I find 2nd A, H was home w/me and I thought things were ok w/us), not tied to H's moods and rollercoaster, i'm done babysitting him and putting myself in the back burner.