Out of the Blue?

[kturnernc]

Sorry to have been gone, but was taking a mental break. I agree with all of yoru posts. I am still confused when I start to think about things and the path they may take. This is something that will have to run its course. I have started looking at it like an illness. It will eventually take care of itself one way or the other. I am simply going to act like the doc and try to heal it the best way in my opinion.

So, quick update...
I have been GAL. I have been going to hockey games (I don't really like hockey, but am starting to) and hanging out with my friends. In fact last night, I was hanging with my friends and she called early for the boys nightly calls. She started out apologizing for not calling the night before. Which I did not notice because a buddy was at the apartment and we were talking. But after saying she was sorry, she wanted to clarify something that may have been relayed to me via my oldest. They were eating with one of her friends and they were talking about dating sites. Her friend is on one but my W wanted to make sure that it was not about her. Thought that was kind of curious. Anyway, after that, she started asking me questions of who I was talking to and where i was. i simply told her 'friends' and that i was 'out'. Her mood changed, she put my oldest on the phone and that was that.

I tried to be a bit mysterious and am keeping the idea that frankly, it is none of her business. If that ticks her off, oh well. As far as the dating thing, I am not trying to read anything into it. Maybe it is guilt, maybe it is not, maybe it was just a way to defuse a future crisis. I don't know, nor will I, not worth my time to worry about.

Other than that, I am trying to stay positive and now that my mind seems to be in a more positive light, I am going to work on my body. So far I have lost 25 pounds. Not good. I am going to start hitting the weight room and toning what I have since the extra fat has been forcefully ripped off my body.