I just wanted to add I dont want this person back - he is not the man I married - so I am ok with that - I just have to let go and mourn my marriage for what is was - which is difficult but I am trying to cope with knowing I have to have some kind of relationship for the rest of our lives for the child with someone who has basically treated me like dirt and still does - What I do keep saying to myself is if I change it will change the way people respond to me so I am working on that
