I actually printed out what you wrote so I could read and digest it! I am definitely going to think this over. You're right, there was almost a month of NC before the second bomb--only 2 contacts between Oct 7th and Oct 30th. So it is actually almost more like five months of NC already. I am going to think over what you said... I have a feeling something might happen this month, but...?? Please always feel free to swim against the tide.... I am here to be hit by your 2 x 4s!!!!
I think part of me is afraid to come out of the dark. It is not just strength, but also fear of what might happen when we start to interact. I know that even if he says the nastiest things possible that still doesn't mean it's all over... according to other DB'ers testimonials who really overcame sitchs that others would have deemed hopeless.
But as long as I stay dark I can stay hopeful and not be part of any drama. Earlier I was thinking, oh! coincidentally, by the beginning of may my semester will be over! How convenient is that! I will not have to deal with any drama while I am in grad school for the next two months, if I stay dark!
Do you think email would be the way to do it? I was planning to send a thoughtful inexpensive no-pressure gift. Or maybe a postcard. Email is kind of in your face, but that way I would know that he got it. I'm not even sure if he's still living at the same apt anymore.
