Back in piecing, I was told that it was ok to shut the door...but not to lock it, just in case. I also don't see myself with the sorry excuse of a man H has become, if and when ever he grows a spine again and if he wants to begin some sort of R I might think about it. My feelings have changed for him, he is in such a hurry to D me that I don't feel much for him now.
I don't see anything wrong with not having fuzzy feelings about wanting your W back, I remember your posts in the separated forum, you took some of the worst abuse I've read about in these boards, with such dignity that I was always impressed by how big of a person you are.
It is ok to grow and head in the other direction. It is raining here, and for a second i thought "my, how nice it would've been to cuddle up to H if he were here". Truth is, when he was here he'd just lay there staring at the TV during out time without kids, would just sit there not speaking at the table and bolted right after inhaling his food without even waiting for me to sit down. I never really had a chance to do those nice things couples with emotional connections do, since he moved back in 06 he was here but not all here.
So I sit here listening to the rain and enjoying it all on my own, thank you very much, and it's ok.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
