I just want to make it better. . .

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Kalni - I think you are way more advanced than I am at "getting it". You're definitely quicker. But, I am gaining! I don't know if I've ever really been in touch with my inner self - not sure I even really wanted to be - but I have wanted "more" from life. I couldn't articulate it very well, and I think that it is actually something that came between H and me b/c it made him feel that I was saying he wasn't adequate as a husband. This is a big over-simplification of that part of our history, but I am slowly learning what "more" is and how to find it.

Jbly - I am glad that you are making progress. I think anyone going through the actual or potential loss of an important relationship feels lost to begin with. That feeling lasts longer for some than for others. For me, that is part of my challenge - to not feel lost because I am here in the present and that is where I am supposed to be. Sounds kind of hippy-dippy, doesn't it?!