Hope,

Don't worry about the backsliding, I have done it heaps of times. And don't put too much pressure on yourself to "get better" quickly. U backslide as much as u want.

It is all part of the healing process.

There will always be pain there, but with time, that pain will lessen in strength. You will recover, regardless of how you feel now.

We all will, thats a given \:\)

Lotsa luv,
Andy