Well. Finally some of the kind of talk I need. I think you sound like a martyr. Before you get angry with me, let me tell why I feel that way. My H is a very neat person and I am a messie. He is teaching me to be neater at first by working with me around the house and later when he felt I wasn't learning fast enough he would just do it. Because he is angry with me all the time he uses what he does around the house as proof positive that he cares more than I do about keeping things neat. I am much neater these days and am more focus than ever on how to keep things neat. I thought if I got better at housework and keep away from my family, friends and church he would like me more and we could have sex again. But pleasing him is like chasing a moving target. I have been chasing that carrot so long and getting the stick instead I don't play anymore I do not even believe that sex exists in the real world. He angry with me right now as I get ready to celebrate Mother's Day with family, co-workers and a few nice strangers. He told me I am not his mother nor am I the mother of his child therefore he is not obligated to get me anything for Mother's day. That didn't bother me 12 years ago but it does now. I thought by now we would cherish each other on those special days. All I know for sure is that I am not good enough and the last time I had sex was April 10th 1998.
