Really struggling today after the decent weekend. I keep feeling that when we have good times she works to push them back. More of "our taxes" for this current year. Maybe I'm wanting too much too soon... maybe she feels pressure eevn though I have not given her any... I guess I always feel this way when I leave them to come back to work. I don't want to go. I asked about coming back a day earlier then planned for s b-day, she said she would think about it. I just wanted an OK, but she could have said no I guess.
I feel in my heart that it is over, but there still seems to be some doubt in her mind. When we are together, aside from the few laughs, there is just no sense of intimacy between us.
