Nothing new going on really. We're living life one day at a time, and everything seems to be fine.
I think I'm in a 'just let things ride' phase. Trying to not get worked up over the past or what's not exactly right in the R, appreciating the good things. And there are a lot of good things. He talks to me about what he's interested in, makes an effort to be home more, does a lot of little things that he knows help me out, holds me close and tells me that he loves me.
That said, I worry a bit about becoming too complacent. There are still some really big issues that we have been circling around for as long as I can remember. I feel that in most of our conversations involving the issues, I ask, he's vague, I end up dropping the subject because he starts playing the 'I'll never be good enough/you'll never forgive me' card. And then I become reluctant to address them when we're not in crisis for fear of impeding healing by constantly picking the scabs.
Why do I feel so muddled as to how to approach the tough issues? Then again, is it right to keep agonizing over them when they're his issues and essentially nothing I have control over beyond my choice to be his wife?
Hoo. I guess I just stirred my inner hornet's nest a little. But all this is nothing new. I'm basically just enjoying what I *do* have and trusting that in the end God will make a way where there is no way.
